November is here and my heart becomes heavier each day. It will be 5 years by this Thanksgiving. 5 years, half of his life on earth. I can’t help shivering with the thought: I...

People say the best place to watch fireworks in this country is at San Diego Bay, so we went this year. The big bay boom attracted around 500,000 people with 2 tons of fireworks....

It rained on Thanksgiving. It never rained in San Diego, but it did this time, on a Thanksgiving night. I didn’t want to fall asleep, listening to the rain hitting on the roof, softly....

Last year when I found out I would teach 3rd grade, I panicked. Joey was diagnosed in 3rd grade. I panicked that these 3rd graders would remind me of the time Joey lost. I...

Feb. 14th, 2014, Joey’s last Valentine’s Day. It was the second day he was back to school after the second surgery. Chemo failed and hair started to grow back. Yet he smiled big. Being...

Every day driving in and out in a hurry in the neighborhood, I never actually stop and see the colors of falling leaves. I take a walk today, with the leaves crunching under my...

Woke up from the dream, with teary eyes. I dreamed about Joey, the third time in two years. Only the third times. I don’t understand. How could you think of someone every day, every...

Last back-to-school photo I have been enjoying the back to school pictures this year so much. The day when I woke up, I couldn’t wait to check my facebook. I love to see Joey’s...

Empty. They are all empty now. All the rooms. I don’t know how I survived packing up his stuff. I have been dreading this date, the date l have to put away his belongings...

I have always been drawn to the ocean. All the cities we have lived so far, there is ocean within two hours of drive. It’s endless. It’s calm. It’s relaxing. It’s full. It’s magnificent....