Down with flu A for 4 days, fever, coughing and nausea. Woke up today carrying the weight of the date, the heaviness that sits in the body. Today marks the 11th year Joey died....

There are days I want to visit a church where nobody knows me, so I could cry my heart out, laugh as old days, or pray frantically – all alone. Today was one of...

Just got ready to leave the Memorial Shoe Display at the base of the Washington Monument, a lady walked up to me. “I took a picture of you and want to share with you.”...

Packing up for the DC trip. I picked a photo for David’s coming visit of Capitol Hill and White House. The photo of my two boys when David was 3. I was unwrapping all...

The most joyous time of the year, is also an isolating season of mourning, the poignant reminder of the absence of a beloved child and the unfulfilled promises. Pains and beauties collide in holiday...

Last two days of conference was a dream come true. Words can’t describe how grateful I am for the planning committee who brought such a significant and impactful meeting, a milestone for tRCC research....

Thanksgiving is soon here. I was driving the other day and the radio station started to play Christmas music. My heart was full of joy and warmth. I love Christmas Carol. But suddenly, the...

Season of graduation and prom. I dread, especially this year when Joey’s friends graduate high school. Each prom picture at news feed is the harsh reminder of the profound loss of future hopes and...

When Joey was a baby, everybody said he had beautiful eyes, bright, transparent and glittering. When he grew up, I saw curiosity, passion and possibilities in his eyes, gazing, watching, and wondering. When he...

For 7 years, I put Joey’s shoes at the door, no matter where we lived, east coast or west. These shoes of gator colors, his favorite. I pretended one day he would come back...